Hey guys, just decided to share my testimonial with you guys since jordan also wants us to upload it on sf blog:) have fun reading^^
I was born into a Christian family since young, but only started attending church when Aunty Grace brought me to AMKPC when I was in primary 2. I was quite an active member in the Sunday school classes until I stopped attending church for almost a year due to certain reasons. My mum then brought me over to her church, hoping that i would be able to pick up attending church regularly again but things got worse for me there. I dreaded going to church every Sunday, till the extent I would even attend church just for the sake of attending church. I wasn’t happy with the way things were being carried out there and I even remembered crying on the first day of Sunday school! It was somewhat similar to a culture shock for me because it was just so foreign there. Everything seemed so bleak, empty and meaningless for me. I was lost; I needed to get back on my two feet again and regain my lost faith in the Lord.
Therefore, my mum suggested me to go back to AMKPC since I was unhappy at my old church. I agreed to it and after my PSLE exams in 2006, I returned to AMKPC and decided that I would start my Christian life anew, and live my way as a good Christian and to be more God centered.
But it did not go the way I wanted to. Along the journey of seeking lost faith during my secondary one days, I tried to accomplish these tasks of becoming a God-centered and spiritually fed person, but I was greatly taken aback by my mood swings and emotional hijacks. I couldn’t control my emotions as easily. These often led to me doing things to hurt myself both emotionally and physically, thus not only affecting the love ones around me, but also and most importantly drifting further and further away from God. I was again, lost and helpless spiritually – this time to a greater degree. I really needed someone to be there for me, someone who could be a friend to listen to me cry, to listen to me pour out my sorrows, and to be with me wherever I am and to remove the fear in me. Time passed. I personally felt that my emotional problems were misleading to a lot of things and created more problems for me. I decided it was time to snap out of it and I consulted my leaders for help. They advised me to pray and submit myself to him and soon, I gradually grew to know that person was actually God! All this while he was just right beside me; holding me, supporting me, giving me strength, encouraging me to hang on and that there is nothing to fear. It was just that I didn’t realize it myself.
Therefore after this period of time, I learnt to commit myself; surrender myself to him and to know that so long as he is there, I need not be afraid because I know he will be there to tide through any rough patches with me, and not let me suffer by myself. Like Philippians 4:13 says “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me”. I finally felt redeemed and relieved – to know that Jesus is always and forever with me!
After going through so many things in life, I felt that the Lord God really played an important role in my life. He helped me not only to get out of my emotional swings, but most importantly to draw closer to him. Thus, I have decided to commit myself entirely to him through baptism this Christmas, and live my life as a God centered Christian. :)
<3 Ian
